Not Sure What To Do.

It’s 4 am at the time of writing this. I can’t sleep, and a storm will be rolling in soon. Last weekend, a tornado almost dropped on top of the house that I’m staying in. Almost wish it had.

That was a depressing opening, but it was honest. I’m not wishing for death, by the way. I get down sometimes, but I truly am thankful for where I am right now. Things could be a lot worse. Despite living in a 186 sqft room, I still have a roof over my head. I have beautiful wife who loves me. I’m not going hungry, but I am jobless. Things could be worse, but things still suck. It all still hurts.

Besides hurting, I’m also confused. Confused about what to do now. Should I beg for my job back, or should I demand it back? Should I look for work elsewhere? If so, where can I go where I won’t get fired or quit? Right now, I just don’t know.

I’m currently using this time off to concentrate on this site, and my YouTube and Twitch channels. Streaming and editing takes up a lot of time. I now finally have time to do it, but unless things take off, I’m gonna have to find work soon. Who knows, maybe I’ll get lucky, but I haven’t so far.